Writing a book is lonely
Once a month, I profile other first-time authors who are working on their book. That we can all learn from them and feel like we belong to a community of writers. This month, Lilah Higgins shares why she didn't want to publish her book and what she most hopes for know that she's committed to putting it out there.
Lilah Higgins is a Brand Designer and Mentor to Creatives. When she’s not chasing around her kiddos or working alongside her techie husband, she is providing her clients with logos & branding that converts and design consultation. She drinks her coffee iced and enjoys opening her home to people and telling the stories of Makers & Creatives. She's also the founder of the #waketomake hashtag on Instagram. You can find her at www.thehigginscreative.com
What is your book about?
I wrote it after I had my son, because I had post-partum depression. I was so blissful the first four months and then all of the sudden I was like, why do I feel this way? Why do I hate my life? So I went to my doula and said, "Is it normal to have depression symptoms five months after having a baby?" And she was like, "Yeah, it can happen." It was like a month of I just didn’t want to go anywhere. I just had no motivation. Nothing. And so my book is focused on the journey out of that.
What motivated you to write the book?
I was reading through a devotional book that my mother-in-law had given me and there was this verse John 16:33. It says in this world you will have troubles, but don’t be discouraged, I’ve overcome it. So, instead of “don’t be discouraged” or “don’t fear” it said “undaunted” and I was like, undaunted, what does that mean? That’s a bold word. That started off my book writing. I want to know what this word means. What does it mean to live an undaunted life?
Where are you at in the writing process?
It’s been four years. I wrote the book within that year [of having my son] and haven’t touched it since. I have a completed manuscript. I vomited it out and it’s still in my hard drive. I had an editor friend read it and she was like, "You have to publish this book." But I was like, "But I don’t wanna publish this book." It’s my heart, out on a silver platter.
I’m working with a publishing coach and an editor. Hopefully, by next year we will have a published book. The publishing coach is Alexa Bigwarfe and she has her own publishing house, so she helps you hybrid publish. So, you invest in her and she helps you build a launch plan and kind of get your book out there, get it out for pre-sale and all the ways you can put it out there. There’s Amazon and there’s private, and there’s you order books and you sell them locally. She’ll be helping me with that along with a launch plan.
When I wrote [the book] I wasn’t super involved in the business I’m running right now. And most people know me because of my business, so [my editor] is going to help me weave that into the story. Because I was developing the business at the time. So she's gonna help me with that. Probably a little bit of rearranging. A little bit of editing. Because I was pretty young so there’s a little bit of teenage angst in the writing. Hoping to make it a little more professional. A little less emotional. More intentional.
What scares you about publishing this book?
Part of it is because I’m so far from where I was at that time in my life that it almost feels untrue to me. Because I’ve become so much more secure in who I am and my identity and all of that. Part of it is that I’m gonna publish it and people are gonna be like are you ok? Yeah, that was like four years ago, I’m fine. The other part is putting my story out there and getting rejected, or worse, ignored. Where no one buys my book. They’re all just pity buys by people who know me. That’s where my fear comes from.
What is your best hope for this book?
That someone will pick it up, maybe even randomly, like not even know me, and they will read it, see some of themselves in it, and they’ll be encouraged to move forward and get through that hard, raw time of motherhood that is just nuts. And you just have to keep your blinders on and take one step after the other and just get through it. But there is hope on the other side.
I’d love to have it be a passive income stream. But it’s really not for the income at this point. I just want to get the story out there. I really feel like it has to be out there. I would love to see my 30-year old self, 35-year old self, on-stage talking about this stuff. Which is hilarious. Because I have the worst stage fright and public speaking issues. But I feel like that’s in my somewhat near future. A book is great. But I feel like being able to connect with people face-to-face is way more powerful.
Where can people find out more about your book?
The best place to hear more about the book is my Facebook group: www.facebook.com/groups/waketomaketribe